Best Actress Award Goes to...

Hello again.

I'm just filling up my time until 6.30pm by typing this new entry of the day. I have to go somewhere after this. Do not ask where, well, it's not like you know where the place, right? Okay, okay, I know...it's just a few blocks away. Don't worry, I'll be okay. (I hope so...)

Okay, back to the business, I'm not done yet with good movies and stuff. I just finished watching Glee 13 episodes. They are good! Well, I mean the part they sing, perform, and you know backing up each other as a team. It made me missing my dancers. When we used to do stuff and laugh out loud. When we were from different streams and courses, but yet, we hang out together like we knew each other since we were kid. We only knew each other for 3 months, and after performing in Putrajaya in 2003, we became bestfriends ever since. All of us had our own dilemmas and yet, when we were together, all are gone.

In some part of the school, we were isolated, but then one told me, "You know why you guys facing this? It's because, everyone in the school wanted to be like you guys badly. You have the spotlights on you, the respects, the talents, the bravery, you guys are like idols to them. They tried hard to be like one of you, but they can't. They can't because they are afraid to come out from their comfort zone."

To all my beloved dancers, I always love you guys! -

Well, not yet an end. Good movies sometimes strike you right in your heart. Lying, respect, caring, back-stabbing, and even competing...they teach you what to feel in the exact situation. My mama always say, " We hate the actor because they act that good as an antagonist..!" (and vice versa, of course.)

However, I don't think, it'll be good to apply that in your real life, mate. That's why we called it acting. Acting to be a real innocent child, to be a real good girlfriend, or acting to be a good damn friend are not showing what you really are. You think you can be a wife-material, you act in front of your boyfriend like you know how to clean the house, folding the washed clothes, but the real you, you don't even care if your kitchen is a total mess for weeks! You don't even care if your house stinks! You are just acting like one, because you don't want they know a real you. Hey, I bet they will leave you immediately if they don't love you.

I salute to who appreciate the trust given by their parents, by their boyfriends or who ever, by just be who you really are. What to lose? I bet, if you honest to yourself, you will get the honesty back from whom loved you.

If you are just a messed up girl, just be it. Don't be like, I-am-the-tidy-girl-at-home-type, when you are not.

If you don't know about something, don't fool yourself by pretending to know something.

If you are one of those daddy-innocent-girl, don't act like you are one of the bad girls. It doesn't fit you at all. I mean, AT ALL!

Be you.

I believe in myself that I am special. I don't mind if people look at me and said, "Datin Seri..."

I will just smile and say thank you. You know what, one day, I'll be Datuk Seri.

People will look upon me and said, "Once I called her Datin Seri, and laughed at her...but now, she is Datuk Seri..."

I'll be a damn good doctor, and a gynecologist (or may be a plastic surgeon or heart surgeon, well I don't really made up my mind yet.)

You just be you, but don't be a bitch. They will totally push you into the pool, because no one like a bitch.

Do some research about yourself, and think many times before you make any decision what you are going to be. A bitch, actor with no royalties, or just you.

p/s: I don't like bitch either. So you think, what am I voting for...? :)