Missing my best friends.

I have been thinking of several girl friends of mine, who are actually, my loveliest, best friends ever.

I can remember my best friend when I was in Standard 2, her name is Nor Hayati Zainal Abidin. However, she moved to another school. Since that, I have never see her again. I once dreamt about her. She pissed at me, then she died. I was so sad that the next day I cried. I miss her.

We were very close. We were some kind of twins. We went anywhere together. We ate our lunch box together.

:(

Then, I have 2 best friends when I moved to another school. They are Siti Nurul Aslah Basir, and Nur Nasyita Rasni. I always have study group with Aslah after school, sleepover in the weekend, and go to her house just to play with her. While I was a classmate to Nasyita. We shared our secrets, we went through bad and happy moments together, and we scored in UPSR together too.

It's just I went to boarding school in Form 1, I left my best friend in the ordinary school we supposed to be together. We are not close as we were anymore. Moreover, a year later, my family and I moved to Shah Alam. Where Aslah moved too. I remained living in the same section with Aslah till now.

Yet, Aslah and I never as close as we were before. Just because I moved to the boarding school.

In boarding school, I don't have any particular close friend. I was a lone ranger, fitting in when I thought it was possible. After boarding school, I moved out. I went to an ordinary school in Shah Alam. First day, I made a few friends, but I found a best friend. She had the same initial as mine. She shares same opinion as mine, she's creative and kind. Something happened, I guess, I broke her heart and trust, though I didn't do anything. She left me hanging.

I have a few friends though, they stayed with me when I was in sorrow, and cheer me up when I was about to cry. Mohd Firdaus Azman, Ivy Faradina, and Nur Zaiyyanne. They are angels of my heart.

Still, I miss Nasyita, Aslah, Miss NN, Fify, Ivy and Yeye. Very much. It's all because of 2 things, boarding school and boarding school.

If I never went to the boarding school, I would have been happier and closer to my besties. However, choosing to go to ordinary school after 3 years, made some best friends, still didn't worth any, when I don't really enjoy my high school moments. Despite of the unforgettable bad memories in high school, I miss my classmates. I miss her, Nurul Najmi Haniffah.

Wishing that she would read this, deep in my heart says she shouldn't. Still, I miss you friend.

Then, in matriculation. I have made some best friends. My own room mates, Nik Fatin Nik Fazli, and Fadila Atan. They are superb, charming and my laughter. Then, my classmates, Ain Ramlee, Arif Shahrom, Husna, Bella, Kama, Suganya, Oemar, Kak Pah, and Sufi. They are awesome. I never thought I would find any better classmates than them. I miss those moments, Fatin, Dila and me cycled in the evening, then stopped by at canteen to buy burgers. Then we cycled back and continue our workout sessions in our room before headed to bathroom to get our baths. After that, we had dinner and studied quietly at our tables.

I miss those seconds when our class needed to decorate gifts for dinner, or doing our experiments happily in the lab, or doing our presentations on the library mirror. We were so happy. :) Oh, yes...we had spent a night at my grandpa's house, and had BBQ. Spend the night with smiles on our faces.

After that, I met Mohana Priya at MSU. She's a great friend. I miss her badly, unfortunately, I couldn't stay longer there when I had on offer to do Medicine here, in Egypt. We will go shopping when we were bored, we will laugh extremely loud when we did jokes, we played bowling on the weekends. She even gave me a pink hippo teddy for my birthday. Which I love so much. Hey Mohana, if you read this, I want you to know, I never forget about you. You might be the only friend who remembered me, the real me. You understands me so well that nobody could. I love you Mohana. I really am. I hope you are fine wherever you are...

Then, when I'm here. I have made a few, and still counting. :) They all are great, my house mates; Tima and Mizah. Then, Dzura, Ja and Wadat. Comes Sarah, Kashah, Syeila and Ika. Though may be we are not really close yet, but they are kind to me. Very kind and caring, and funny sometimes. :) Thank you guys for being my friend. Correction, best friends. Yep, they are.

I really miss all of them. All of them. All. :(

If I could turn back time, I would have set things right. So I will not have to face the fact I'm losing any of them. I'm sorry for not being a good friend. I did something wrong, but I need you to make me realize that. I can't do it right if you go away. You were my friends, you always are.

I just miss my friends so much that I could cry now...


p/s: You, you know who you are...we started as strangers who fell in love with each other, but now you are not only my other half, but you are everything to me. :)